Whew the worst is over. Abt 1 wk more to go before i can finally enjoy myself with no worries. Shall take a well deserved break now.
I wouldn't say i did my utmost best, but at least i didn't disappoint myself tt much, other than feeling pissed off at myself at some stupid mistakes that i could have avoided. Ok shall not brood and waste time crying over spilt milk.
Getting pass macro was like surviving the uber-optional boss in a game. So glad the impeding doom i had to feel over the past few days whilst studying for it is gone.

On a side note, cun wait for the holidays! The days i get to spend with my dearest rite aft exams, doin things we haven't done in a long time n missed doin, or simply just chilling and enjoying each other's company. Sweet bliss of love~
Oh and not forgetting theres clubbin, Bangkok shopping, GSS shopping, working and earning money heh, mayb an internship at ocbc, dance training for the concert oo exciting, Arts Camp, and going on all sorts of adventures and outings! 3 mths suddenly seem like such a short break. Not forgetting theres still reservist to go for. Sigh, ill just look on the bright side of seeing my campmates again after having not met for so long.

Thinking abt all the post-exam goodness is making me yearn for all my papers to come quick, ignoring how much i still need to study and revise for. Kill me pls.

WTHOMGBBQ i cun believe its 2 days to my first exam paper. Kill me pls i feel freaking unprepared. And macro is so hard i dunno how im gonna pass the paper. My cap this sem is so goin down the drain.

OH and did i mention my mum just got scv installed in my living rm? Plus all the drilling to fix up the new lifts at my block, i absolutely cun study at home at all. I need a rm like those asylum style whitish comfy crazy kind of room where i can get the ultimate peace and quiet, away from the rest of the world. Except U.

whinewhinewhine

Woohoo ~8 hrs of studying today, finished most of my readings, i rock haha. Thats why im giving myself space to breathe and slack here. Now i cun think of any entertainment to allow me to slack wif, i mean normally there's anime n all the gaming, but ive caught up with all the anime and no new ones are out at the first half of the wk. And im restraining myself from resuming my RPG, which will take more than a a few days to finish, time which i dun have tt much to spare.

This sem feels weird. Like strangely relaxing. Given how i shld be panicking now cos i still have so much econs to cover, theres something seriously wrong here. And dun tell me its cos im prepared and know my stuff, cos i kinda don't. How i wish i could sometimes be that smart genius that studies a little and still manages to get damn good grades, beating all those who mugged so hard and achieved just abt the same results. Or some mutant special power that allows me to manipulate time so i can freeze time and take my time to study, or simply just freeze time in the exam hall and look at the answers of the genius.

Time manipulation is the best and most imba mutant power u can have, face it.

Cun wait for the summer break, its gonna be busy and fulfilling and fun! Whee. Ok maybe not THAT fun, but at least i wun have tt much time to hang around at home and slack my life away, which can be done any other time, so why waste the break on something so trivial?

Tension rising.
Can't stand having to redo things
Just cos of one simple
Mistake.

Bloody stressed
Everything has to come at once.
Good and bad inclusive
No time.

Improvise!
Wonder if can finish everything
In time for the big day.
Stay tuned.

Have withdrawal symptoms from lack of dance. Intense urge to club. People who share similar interest holler out right now! Im gonna chiong to the club once exams are over man. And mind you though it seems many guys go there to attempt to get laid or wasted, i must stress how irked i feel about such mindsets. Wanna get laid shld go geylang, wanna get wasted just buy some cheap liquor and get high at home with a grp of frens, more glam by not puking everywhere and at anyone. More bang for the buck too. Clubbing is freaking unfair for guys anw, blardy hell expensive cover charge and even more exorbitant drink prices. And cab fares, dun even get me started on the govt *cough*blood*suckers*cough*. Ahem. Thus poor me normally just stick to my 2 free drinks, no matter how thirsty i am. Plus zouk is so overcrowded these days u need to go at 9pm just to get the chop and ensure u can get in later. And it takes eons just to move from the middle of the dancefloor back to the entrance, squeezing through the gazillion throngs of ppl. I wonder what would happen if you have sudden diarrhoea. Like woah, all i can say its ull literally be in deep shit.

Ok, so many complaints, but i still wanna club hahs. I apologise for the angst, but its exam period, i get a right to be abusive like a pms pang.

I just realised today that i dun feel any smarter than when i was in jc. Shldnt there be an upgrade in intelligence or smth, but i somehow dun feel levelled up, like yanoe in a game u gain levels and are able to handle tougher battles. I dun feel any better equipped and prepared for the corporate, which comes in 2-3 years. I see my close fren hus an accountant now and i dun feel much different from her. She still ponders over love, worries over little things, and still deals with non-adult issues. Where's the paying of bills, buying of a car, paying taxes, coping with office politics, picking up a hobby blabla. I know becoming an adult is much more than that, but the transition doesnt seem to be after uni. To think i assumed it just comes after NS, all the propaganda about how it makes you a man and loving your country and fighting for it is damn MAN. Soci really opens ur eyes to doctrines, tts all i can say. Any more i may get shot. Really.

Oh 1 random thing. I was at the sichuan stall in arts canteen today and an angmoh was behind me trying to order dumplings, and the stallholder couldn't really speak English. Thus i played translator and made things so much easier. I was thinking of just taking my food and leave without interfering, but i just couldnt take it seeing how helpless both parties are. Ok wads the moral of the story? Shaun is effectively bilingual thank you.

And recent events that i experiences only reinforce my stand on the other people out there. Lets call them beings who belong to the lower strata in terms of class. Incident 1 where they cun get the foor orders right, cun count how much 2 different kinds of food cost, cun calculate how much change to give back, no brains to use the calculator place right in front of one's eyes blatantly screaming to be used, cun differentiate a 10c coin from a 20c one, cun multitask for nuts. Incident 2 where they cun write nicely on the board, cun present properly, cun shift away knowing one is blocking the board, cun answer tutor's question still act smart.OMG. We all know thou art naught so dun nid to try to hard. But one thing tt we gotta be thankful for, we need them to balance out the bell curve and make our grades better.

Listening to Kat Deluna's 'Run The Show' and feel like grooving already. May 14 (WED, yanoe wad that means) hurry up come! Oh and thanks for reading all this crap till the end. Which means you effectively wasted quite alot of ur precious time not studying. Woohoo my secret ploy to eliminate competition heh. Gd luck all to exams, n stop all the crap abt how screwed ur exams are and shove the As in my face when you get the results back. Nonetheless, study hard ppl.

Heartpainnn. My gf's sick wif fever and headache and sorethroat and swelling eyes. Ouch ouch ouch. Its so hard to see a loved one suffering and you cun do much to help except stay by her side n hope she gets better.

And its rather pissifying to see how fellow uni mates can be q inconsiderate in public, esp when we're supposed to be the ones who are more highly educated. The 151 bus i was waiting for this evening took eons to arrive, and by the time it reached the 3rd bus stop in the uni, its was already packed. But there was obviously still space for ppl to squeeze to let more ppl in, yet ppl have to just stand there thinking that they have a right to their own space and pretend everything else around them is none of their business. The bus was stuck at the central forum for a good 3mins at least, with ppl wanting to squeeze up but ppl refusing to inch closer to one another just to create that extra space. Like wth, if you wanna act big pls go get ur own car, you have all the space to isolate urself or even make out if u want. If not, kindly move to the rear to let more people board. They are your fellow uni mates after all.

The ugly side of uni students are not just limited to this example. I've seen plenty other cases myself, from peeing all over the toilet seat n not cleaning up ur own mess, to sashaying along the walkways during peak hours, trying to rehearse for the next cycle of America's Next Top Model when one's face and dressing obviously will make people cry.  OK shit im starting to sound damn mean. But you get my drift.

On a side but URGENT note, the heat and pressure of the exams is on, but i dun seem to be feeling it. Someone smack me from my lalaland.