Wow term break's over in the blink of an eye. Cant say its a super productive wk in terms of studying, but at least i had my share of fun and enjoyment. Oh in case ppl were wondering, my 21st bdae this yr was quite special, something worth remembering. Those who dint know it was my bdae recently should get out of here now haha. Explicit details aside, it was divided into several mini gatherings, of feasts, surprise cakes, nice (and expensive haha) gifts, and treating people and getting treated. So i officially declare that im broke now. I will seriously live on $10 a wk.

The worst thing i had to do the past wk was my philo essay, which forced me to squeeze my brain juices dry just to come up with enough content to fulfill the number of words for the essay. The best thing that happened, was events involving my bdae. I really enjoyed the different groups of ppl i managed to meet this holidays, and i appreciate all of you taking time off ur busy schedules for me. Seeing how everyone matures and becoming adults makes me think back on the good old times we used to have, and how friendship is such a beautiful wondrous thing. Our clique may not meet that often, but theres still a special bond that each of us shares with one another, and hopefully will continue to stay strong in the year to come.

As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

Hopefully yah.

One thing abt me is that i dun like to harp about things, especially when i regard them to be trivial. I mean, why make myself waste time being upset or worried over something, when i know ill call it quits at the end of the day and all's well will end well. Call me optimistic, but one thing ive learnt over the years (well i was v pessimistic in the past fyi) is that worrying too much makes you miss the golden opportunity, and sometimes good things only come knocking on your door once.

Whew. Just finished my js essay at KAP, amidst swarms of young ppl mugging, children making noise at the party room, slackers chatting n playing cards and ppl-watching, trying to spot for eye-candies. How i love my distractions hah. Amazing that my lappie managed to survive more than 4 hrs, so now im typing this entry on the remnants of its batt life.

Anw on to more babbling. Speaking of harping, i hope i wun have to talk on the issue of friends more than twice, i dun like to harp lest i sound whiny. Makes me feel like im writing a sociology paper abt peer relations, which unfortunately isnt tested in my mid-terms. Dun even get me started on how far behind i am in soci urgh.

Anw, friendship requires 2 hands to clap. Anything less, it becomes an dictatorship. Mutual compromise, sacrifice and magnanimity is needed. After all, Jesus died on the cross for our sins, and being Christian means you try and entail all tt. Of course, asking for them too often is impossible since we're human after all. For my case, i try and make time for everyone. But we only have 24 hours a day, n we all have different priorities.
Dunnowad to say anymore. batt almost flat. This shall be it for now. Oh wait i did mention i wun harp on the same topic again didnt i? Oops.

Term break/recess week is here. Yay?
Projects, mid-term test revision, essays, how fun. Its more like break for the weekend before you start mugging your ass off the rest of the days. At least now i have time to catch up all the tonnes of readings i havent done, and the webcasted lectures ive yet to watch, which amts to abt 8hrs worth. Now i understand why uni ppl nvr seem to be free, even though they have holidays.

On a lighter note, i think i didnt do too badly for my english module's mid term test, after looking at the answer key given. Not a bad start to a new path in life. Oh and danceblast prac was strenuous man, after having not exercise for a long time. Stressful too, seeing how all the people in there seem to be pros. Wow lor, everyone picks up the moves so fast, and do them them sleekly too la. But all in all the people there are cool and perky, and learning new moves is always fun.

And so my special day passed with a special meaning left in my heart. No large scale event held, but still one of the most memorable. Thanks for everything. Even tried to mend a broken friendship, but i guess even if all the pieces of shattered glass are glued back tgr, it will be different from what was initially a beautiful vase.

For me, ive realised that the thing called commitment is really subjective. It is a spectrum with the extremes being neglect and possessiveness, and learnt from my mistake, painfully and sadly, that different people requires different lvls of commitment. It would really be unfair to demand the same amt of attention from everyone. For me, i try to give everyone some of my time, not forgetting to keep in touch with the ones i care abt. Thus, when it isnt reciprocated or ppl take it for granted, of cos theres a part of me that starts to wonder whether they are really worth the while or not. But ultimately, i dun blame them, cos i believe in friendships that can endure trials and withstand the strains put on it. In fact, i feel the strongest friendships are ones that have tided over so many quarrels and squabbles that nothing else can break them. So it really doesnt matter if i dun see or contact you for a year, cos i noe when we meet a year later, the chemistry we share and the good n bad times we had tgr will lead us back to being the same good frens again, albeit not informed of the latest happenings in each others' lives.

So people who keep pangsehing me, you are forgiven. Just dun abuse it, unless you really dun want me to contact you for a yr or more =).


And its not us not giving it a 2nd chance to make it work, its your unacceptance that things will work out, if you only just give it a chance. Thats when we can only see you walk away from us.

Oh im officially a BLASTARD {n. [blah-sterd] A member of Dance-blast, the most hip hiphop dance group in NUS, probably even the best.}
Woohoo.
Bad thing is that it clashes with my sociology lect this sem, n to attend the compulsory first class i have to pon that lect again. FYI i ponned it the first time for the auditions which was held at the same timeslot as normal practice times, tho i have no regrets doin so now tt i managed to get in. Actually, the choreographer kinda told our entire grp who auditioned together, that we were all so impressive that he decided to let us all go thru, just that paranoid me wanted a more official confirmation before risking spreading the news. Its like you tell the whole world you're getting married and then in the end you dun, so a lil paranoia is still good in that sense hah.

Oh btw this news isnt tt new, due to my late update. In fact, its at least 1 wk stale. Just wanted to do a sudden happy shoutout. DANCE ROX! There, shouted. =)

It really bothers me how so many ppl are turning themselves into imbalanced mugging machines such that they dun even have time for friends these days. Saddens and disappoints me. Isnt it all about time and stress management? I bet even if you were given 10 hours to study, 2 hours of it will be used up by distractions and taking short breaks. Sure, exams and graded assignments takes priority over everything else, but does having a meal together take up so much of one's time? Or mayb im not sensitive enough to realise that other faculties are more intense on the workload compared to the rest of the student population, but somehow those ppl who claim they are damn busy doesnt seem to have that many commitments when compared to some who belong to the same fac, yet balances hall life, cca and friends equally well. That says something doesnt it. And dun give me the argument abt tt being the minority. I can also say the majority you belong in are all the overseas scholars and high achievers. Its a league you'll find yourself losing to, most of the time.

Seriously.

The kiasuism and kiaseeism culture is Singapore is really rampant, what can i say. Will you be the next to jump on the bandwagon, trying to get ahead of everyone else in the paper chase?

3 words: busy busy busy. Now that tutorials have kicked in, much of my free time has pretty much been occupied by the dreaded unfamiliar task of mugging. Being ever so remote to that term, its time to come to terms with it. Thus my life revolves around books, and social life has been reduced to almost zilge. Not gonna bore you wif content of my readings, heres the other interesting things ive done recently:

2 movies - Skinwalkers and Hairspray. Many of you probably never heard of the former title, and be glad you haven't. I cun even find a reason why you should watch it. And dun ask me why i did. Hairspray was worth watching tho, heartwarming n entertaining musical, with healthy messages of anti discrimination, like equality between whites n blacks, and that even someone hus short n fat can become famous n popular. So dun judge a book by its cover, and think twice before you insult ppl. Cos you nvr know the PRC sitting nxt to you could be the nxt A-Mei. Or not. Oh and the Hairspray soundtrack is gd too, so all in all go watch it if you like High school musical, or the main guy acting in it, since hes in Hairspray too.

Food glorious food - Never felt so broke before, now that i dun have an income to survive on. So no more wkly restaurant visits to make myself feel like some culinary whore. Ok i digress. Treated hs to Crystal Jade dimsum for his bdae (emphasis on 'treat' for that extra hint to he hu reads it muahaha), and i can attest to their century egg porridge as one of the best ive eaten. Yum. N i satisfied my craving for xiaolaobao there at the same time. Enjoyed the feeling of lazing the afternoon away wif a good buddy, like a retired ah peh in HK. Which reminds me of how much i miss HK: the food, the rushing around, and most imptly, the choir peeps. Gosh we havent met in a long time. Then i went for Sakae buffet just last wk, ponning my Philo tut for it gosh. Starvingly stuffed myself as though my stomach knew no boundaries, but thats the fun of buffets isnt it haha. Ate so many chawanmushis the chicken population must hate me. Filled myself with so much rice the grain farmers must be cursing. And now that i have my matric card, i finally get to enjoy student price. So worth it heh.

Clubbing, clubbed - Just to clarify, im seriously not some clubbing fanatic. I just happened to go clubbing again a few days after the time at Phuture i mentioned in my previous entry. This time it was wif my Arts O Wk OG, goin tgr for the Arts Bash. Given that most of us werent interested in the bash, since it was rather obvious whic pair was gonna win. Gd thing there was gd company, cos DXO sucks. Their free drink only entails housepour+soft drink. So i couldnt ask for vodka cranberry or vodka lime. And thats the staple i drink in clubs. So screw DXO. And then there were so many couples lined up nicely at the podium making out. All were like our Arts peers some more. Either they cun find or afford a room, or they just love the attention. And plenty of it they were getting.

Tok cok Sing song - KTVing is my next most common entertainment option nxt to slacking at home i tell ya, seeing how often ive gone the past wks. Which makes me more broke than ever, ignoring the fact that it improves my singing hah. First i went wif one of my best frens, since it was her bdae n she wanted to sing. Then it was with the Arts ppl for og outing. Lastly was some crazy last minute outing with 2 of my choir clique girls, in the middle of the nite! All were fun i must say, and i was really running out of new songs to sing by the third time. And not forgetting weekly choir practices, gdness even more singing. If i sing any more often that this, i might as well be joining some singing competition.

That about sums up everything exciting ive done, tho not v exciting i must say. Still waiting for confirmation of my danceblast audition results. Shld be gd news, i hope. And couldnt join salsa or kickboxing this sem, so my uni life so far hasnt been that enriching. Still trying to find stuff to join. Kayaking expedition during the term break, anyone?