Yay finally fixed my radio blog. Might have to wait a while for the song to finish streaming tho, so dun complain, im giving my best to make my readers have a pleasant stay here. Anw, had a reality check today. Realised how old i am when i met my close friend's sister, who's in NJ, n in choir some more. Their whole family literally has choir background la, and all 3 sisters went to NJC some more. Freaky.

Turning 21 this year. Hmm. Alrdy have a rough bdae plan in mind, but wonder if it will really turn into reality? You guys will just have to wait and see. Not all of you who read this are invited tho. MUaHaHa evil me.

Btw, dun take that seriously heh. I dun want anyone to cry on my blogpage.

Wanted to shout TGIF last Friday but too tired to update. You seriously wun understand and appreciate the meaning of TGIF until you go to work. And all you blokes out there who dunno what it means, its the short form for Thank God Its Friday. Weekends are here, for crying out loud. Even school isnt as tiring, since its not 8-5. Neither do u do the same things everyday. With different subjects to mug for, whee how fun. But at work, you see the same few ppl everyday, and perform the same job duties everyday. Cos we're at the freaking lowest tier of the corporate ladder to even experience challenges and work stress.

Ok i shldnt bitch too much abt my job. I shld just be glad i have one in the first place. And thank God for that.

Overslept for church again. Dang. Havent been going for church recently, in fact, just cos i was too tired. Mayb thats why im having so many distractions in my head, when i shldnt be thinking abt such stuff in the first place. And no i will not discuss wad they are, they are just stupid thoughts that will remain as thoughts in my head.

Not in tune wif my work today. Think i woke up on the wrong side of bed or smth. Or mayb my mind is not ready to start work yet, after the long cny break. Either way, was really sleepy today, with nth much to do since the pace was slow, with everyone doing things slowly on cny day 4. Time goes by REALLY slow when ur zhuo-boing. Gave myself frequent toilet breaks n trips all arnd the building to deliver stuff tho i dun nid to., just so in order to stay awake. Was even desperate enuf to lock myself in a cubicle to rest for 1min, before realising how stupid and absurd my actions were, and getting all paranoid that there might be a hidden camera spying on me.

Anw, i have to cross this overhead bridge every morn to get to work, and thats where i took this pic. Nice n refreshing scenery i must say. Or mayb its just my photography skills =P. I take 2 buses to work everyday btw, which costs me $4 to n fro. Since i started work, everything seems so expensive, i might even think twice before entering a toilet that costs money. I was joking btw, im not such a miser k.

I've nvr eaten the food at my workplace canteen before. Not even tasted their free coffee n tea. I heard it sux. But theres quite alot of hawker centres all arnd, just have to walk quite a distance, since the nearest and the most frequented one we go to is abt 5mins away. Good exercise anw.

Havent gamed in a long time. Which is a good thing. So all you folks out there, im not a gaming addict. Yea you heard me right. So to those still playing WoW and trying to prove to the rest of the world that it is actually a very sociable thing to do, n its not just a game, i urge you to delete that evil program off your com immediately. Or call 1800-quit-WoW.

Anw i actually feel no urge to game, i just treat it like a social call these days, when a friend wants to play and just share some fun tgr, im definitely game. N sleeping late during the weekdays will just snowball my tiredness all the way into the weekends. Still adapting to the typical lifestyle of a workaholic. Oh whee my boss took leave tmr.

I.need.to.freaking.lose.weight.

Urgh.

Happy Chinese New Year to all. Food entry today! Will be talking abt some of my fav cny goodies like some ingenious food critic. My standards for food are quite high i must say lol, n i wouldnt mind being a food reviewer for some magazine or tv program. Then again i will have to think abt the problem of getting fat, since i gain weight easily. Hmm. Anw I digress.
So, the pineapple filling cannot be too sweet, and has to have a slight tinge of sourness so it tastes like it came from a real pineapple n not a processed one. Then the texture cannot be too hard or soft or sticky. You will be able to feel the tiny fibrous pineapple threads from the best ones. Oh, and the amount of filling has to be enough so u taste more pineapple than crust. Generally, more is better muahaha.
The most important thing abt the crust is its texture, followed by fragrance. Not too oily, able to maintain form while you hold it between your fingers, but crumbles once it enters your mouth. Then comes the fragrance. In a good crust, you'll be able to taste something other than flour. My aunt uses a special ingredient for her pineapple tarts which make them taste like butter cookies. Really fragrant. Mmm.

NEVER ever do last minute shopping.

Had an urge to shop since i went to vivocity for the first time on yesterday, during my 1 hr lunch break. Yea yea call me a suakoo, wadeva. Anw we decided to head there since i suggested it haha, and our boss wasnt arnd so we could kinda extend our lunch hr a bit. Dun ask me how long we were out. But its really quite near my office anw, 8mins bus ride. Its the long wait for the bus tts the anal part. So in the end only visited 2 shops, spending a total of 30 minutes only. Gosh dun even feel like trying out clothes.

Tried shopping again today. Started out in the afternoon with lunch at borders. Since aud is working there, wadeva we eat got discount! Only started walking arnd town at 3.30, and had to do superspeed scanning of the clothes in each store. Walked from wisma to taka, then back to wisma, followed by paragon, espirit, heeren, then back to paragon. By the time we went to espirit to find it closed, all other shops started closing and we had to end our lil spree. Totally sian diaoz. No satisfaction, fulfillment, or orgasm. No kick at all.

Shall go on another shopping trip next wk.

And....
Holyshitholyshitholyshit, omgomgomg.
Naruto hurricane chronicles is damn nice. As a loyal fan of their anime series n refusing to get spoiled by the manga, i've waited 2 long years or mayb more for the fillers to finally end, reading speculations abt when they will end only to get cheated and continue watching crappy lame episodes. But finally, the wait is over. And the wait was so worth it. The jaw-dropping, cliff-hanging suspense at the end of each episode, making u crawl back, wanting for more, is back. Naruto has risen back to the top of my watch list every weekend, followed by Grey's anatomy, Bleach, and other shows i download. Oh no am i even supposed to write that i dl such stuff from the internet. Oops. Pls dun sue me.

Oh and a happy lunar new year to everyone. Here's wishing you:
Prosperity.
Immense wealth.
Great success.
There, PIG.
Pun not intended.

Hmm n i realised my post on tuesday is too agressive. Must be the anger tt made my post so bastardy. N bah i should be sleeping now. Im gonna die again at work later. Key in one wrong numeral or letter for my data n i risk getting scolded by all the departments, since alot of ppl depend on that data. Big responsibility, cun afford to screw up.
*Gulp*Big gulp*Super big gulp*

Every weeks just gets worse. Eventful, but my body is taking a toll, from all the OTs i need to do, and trying to maintain an almost non-existent social life in the evenings after work, thus sleeping real late resulting in my panda eyes. Gonna blog a week's worth of thoughts, so warning: long entry, ramblings included.

Seriously pissed with my bro. Totally no care or consideration for others. I can safely say im the more filial and thoughtful son. And in control of my money too. Hmph wadeva.

Ill lose to my bro in a confrontation cos i think he might use violence. And his irrelevant 'SO? You got problem? Wad you gonna do abt it?' kind of egoistic provocations only serves to irritate. I might really punch him one day. He really takes advantage of the big brother role, abusing his authority and power. Thus, whenever im pissed wif him, ill get back at him with little mind games, causing him inconvenience n suffering discreetly, desperate housewives style. That show really taught me well heh.

Being the younger child, im more protected by my parents n get more attention from them. N with better grades, mayb hes just jealous. Personal insecurity seriously. Like get over it.

Anw, as much as i hate direct confrontation, i believe its the best way to solve a problem. Enuf wif the mind games. I dun wish to waste blog entries on stupid things. Esp when my time is tight these days. Im not the one hu started the cold war.

Which reminds me, my v close friend n i refused to talk to each other for half a year a long time ago, just cause of some stupid reason that she thinks shes always the one calling, which i disagreed, and wasnt entirely true. Stupid, but yea, i won. She called me 6 mths later. Of cos, i did compromise, and we took turns to call every day instead.

Wanted to update yest but too tired, but anw...
Today's my 2nd day of work!

Admin assistant, wad more can i say abt my job. Pay not too bad, and can do OT willingly, if you're up for it. Working 11 hrs the past 2 days is no joke man. To think i wanted to juggle 2 part time jobs. Kudos to those studying and working at the same time. I have 3 colleagues, excluding my supervisor and manager, hus male. Serious generation gap. I think the age difference averages 15 yrs. Can hardly find any common topics to talk abt really. But ive learnt quite alot from listening to their conversations during this short period of time, since they are past the stage of idyllic idiotic chatter. Oh wow i used alliteration.
And how i love the freakingsweetnlovely weekends. Now i know why people shout TGIF.
Weekends rock.

Im sick of the one always giving in in the end. Esp when im not entirely at fault. Im always compromising for other's flaws, 99% of the time. That's my principle in a friendship. And this time, I am not wrong by just being me. Plus, im not the one who flared up n became so mad that I refused to say a word. I believe squelching is a cowardly form of disagreement. Thus, i shall think of me being squelched until the silence is broken.

The best apology i can give would be: 'I thought the small things dun matter, but since they do, I'm sorry i dun know you well enough yet. And I hope there's still a chance to.'

Really really tired. Spent roughly $5 on transport expenses today, running all over the place. EZ-link card had a negative value went i got home in fact. And i couldnt change bus some more. So i had to walk quite a distance to take a crowded AND slow bus which stops 15 mins away from my house. What luck.

First was for driving, which i had a really hard time trying to book btw. Only managed to book the slot online at 11pm yest. I have abt 2 more lessons that I die die have to complete before i can sit for my practical test in march, and with the schedule so packed up till mid of march, im a lil worried that i might not get any slots and forfeit my chance to take the test. Guess i just have to keep hitting refresh on the site till someone gives up his/her slot n ill grab it.

Im sry i digress. Anw, not long after coming back from driving, i then had to rush down to tanjong pagar for an interview, first wif the agency followed by wif the company. Thats how job agencies work btw. And the person on the phone told me so last minute some more. So i had 2 hrs to figure out my way there and lemme tell u, tanjong pagar IS confusing. I went out from the wrong exit, and had to make a 10min detour. And the mrt station had like 7 exits?

Then after settling the stuff at his office, i had to make my way down to depot road within an hr. Yes, for all u NSFs n NSmen out there, its the place where it all started: CMPB. That freaking ulu place. The actual company i went to was near there anw. At least tts wad my job agency told me, until i called the company and they said i alighted 3 stops too far and thus had to backtrack all the way. Seriously. Formal wear became sweaty formal wear.

Oh well hopefully all the hard work pays off and i get the job. Its not as convenient to travel there as i tot it was acty. At the end of the day, my legs hurt n im damn tired from lack of sleep yest. This had better be worth it.

Ppl hu noe me would noe tt im such a perfectionist that i will even care abt the nitty gritty stuff. It is neither a strength nor weakness. And ppl have to learn to accept that side of me and move on, and if you can't, there's really no blaming anyone if u walk away. Hell, i accepted someone hu thinks the world revolves arnd him and moved on. I accepted someone hu continuously pokes and makes fun of me and moved on. I even accepted someone hu hardly has any time for me and still moved on. Ive learnt to not be bothered by such lame things anymore. Those reading and feel guilty for any of the above, im not telling u all to change, im just saying im alrdy past tt insecure stage of frenship where everything trivial matters.

Friendships are supposed to be able to withstand tough times. Those that dun are just simply not deep enuf. Everyone has flaws, and the point of being friends in the first place is that you dun mind their flaws. Or deal with it calmly, emphasis on calm. Flaws are not easily changed, and sometimes cun be changed even, and patience is really the key if the friendship were to remain unscathed.

You dun call anger/wrath one of the 7 deadly sins for nth. It is the love of justice perverted to revenge and spite. It clouds the judgement. It triggers along with oversensitivity. Talking to angry or irritated ppl will just allow urself to become like them, and 2 angry people arguing = chaos.

Ever dread the excruciation of having to update relatives with your life, and how they nvr get tired of asking u questions on how you're doin? Real concern or just a benchmark to compare their own kids wif? Seriously. Well, if you have something proud to tell them, then its alright, but the situation becomes awkward when they find out that you arent doin well in ur studies or ur just slacking around, since they expected more. Being in the better schools, im considered the higher achiever among my cousins. Thus i get drilled for study and revision tips. Sadly no tuition deals tho =(. Sometimes you just have to understand that a person has high and low points in his life, and the least you can do is be supportive and not be so result-oriented and achievement-driven.

And no one shld be more concerned abt my life's ups n downs than myself n my parents. And probably my frenz. Not seemingly concerned distant relatives. No more mr nice guy if they're gonna make snide remarks.

God is fair. People with v high IQ are mostly either ugly or eccentric.
Big sweeping statement by me, feel free to sue me for slander all u intelligent freaks out there =P.

I guess i cun treat everyone equal. Just like how ppl tend to show favouritism and bias to certain ppl. That's right, i cun assume that everyone will share the same thoughts as each other, since everyone is unique on their own. Likewise, i shldnt impose on someone thinking that we're really good frens and it doesnt matter, when it fact it does.

Im a really gullible person. Some people just cannot be trusted, but i still trust them anw, and in the end i suffer. Mayb in my heart im deluded, hoping that theres good in everyone and everyone's nice and all. Living in my own fantasy world where happy endings are abundant and theres no suffering in the world.

And im a perfectionist with little room for mistakes. Apologies arent my thing, and its hard for me to say them too. Oh did i mention i suck at the expression and affection department too?

The key word for today? Compromise.
Just like how u nid to make sacrifices for God.