Yawn. Having weird sleeping hours lately. Tending to sleep REAL late and then wake up at arnd noon, eat lunch, watch some anime or drama, and then nap till evening. That would be a typical day of my current life unless i've plans for that day. Omg ive been eating, sleeping and not doin anything else, like a pig. Gd thing im not gaining weight, i think. Gosh i nid some action in my life.

Oh talking abt action, i had the most exciting driving lesson today. Met with lotsa unforeseen circumstances and scenarios that made my heart skip a beat. If i had taken the actual test today, i would have failed five times over. Hope the traffic wun be as chaotic as today's during the day of my test, or else i wun be able to prove to my bro that i can pass on the first try and get my driving licence in march.

Been trying to remember ppl's bdaes lately, and realised i truly suck at remembering dates. In fact, i was nvr gd at remembering phone numbers either. Not even my mum's or dad's hp. Seriously. I have to record everything down in my phone, and if i lose it, it'll be a catastrophe. I think i have really really short term memory. I mean, sometimes i even forget what i had wanted to do when i get downstairs, only to go back upstairs and then suddenly remembering, goin back down again. Effects of growing older and not utilising the brain during NS i tell you. Gd thing i didnt take content-heavy subjects for my 'A's. Or at least i did until i dropped it, biology that is. Economics is a different matter tho, since its my fav subject n i dun mind memorising facts abt it. But other than tt, its either my brain's real slow at remembering stuff or my memorising techniques are just wrong.

So to all those ppl whom i've forgotten their bdaes and looks as if i dun give a damn abt their impt time of the yr, i really do. And a really belated happy birthday to you. Please forgive this old senile man here.

And you can drop me a blunt hint or reminder when its approaching, cos im a real idiot at times. Haha.

Realised i have too many philosophical n thought-provoking entries of late, so i shall make weekend entries lighter and easier to read. Like entries talking abt places n food! The pics below are from Azabu Sabo restaurant, at Marina Sq. Ate there quite some time ago, during new yr's eve. Yea yea, outdated i noe. Havent had the chance to take much nice food pics anw heh.

Another type of their 'ice kachangs'. This one's called soft ice cream w chocolate n custard sauce. With banana slices to go along to. Nice combination. One thing gd abt jap desserts are that they dun taste excessively sweet. Oh and the soft ice cream is rather unique, its texture is like tt of mac's, but taste much more exquisite. Melts rather fast tho.

This is the one i ate. Smth different that i nvr had before. Long name too. If i still rmb, it shld be soft ice cream with golden flour, kanten jelly and red bean paste. I think the golden paste is made of brown sugar. Kanten jelly is pretty much tasteless agar agar, n red bean paste is well, red bean paste. The overall taste was rather weird for me. But i must say the red bean paste is very well done, each of the red bean had a nice bite to it. The brown sugar syrup which they provided separately was unnecessary since it made the whole thing too disgustingly sweet. And i think ur not meant to eat the kanten jelly alone, cos its really tasteless on its own.

And the staff there really nid to have a better sense of balance. The mango ice they were carrying toppled on its way to our table, and the banana pieces fell on the table when they presented the choc ice la. We know you're generous on the servings, but the bowl is only that big. Service wasnt too sloppy, tho it was nearly full house. Tea refills very prompt too. Presentation of the food was good, just like the standard of most jap restaurants. Price average, affordable.

Thus, 7.5/10 for overall appeal.

Friends. There are some that come and go, and those that stay with you for many years to come. It's inevitable to lose frenz, as you gradually stop contacting some of them and become too busy wif other aspects of your life that you cun seem to find the time to go out wif every single one of them. It's also really easy to get to know more frenz, just a simple greeting, a smile and a new friendship is born. Which comes to the discussion of the degree of frenship.

The shallowest level would be the acquaintance. People you smile at, say 'hello' and 'bye' to, but you have no idea what his last name is. You met him/her at a random event in ur life where u all chatted abt casual things and thats it. And you rarely talk to them at all unless put in an unescapable awkward situation like when both parties are alone on public transport. The eyes of both of u meet, you smile and wave at the person, and u are forced to start a conversation wif him/her. And you'll be thinking how 'lucky' you are, and how you would reach ur station faster or that he/she will get off soon.

Argh for convenience sake ill just assume all friends are male, so i can do without the hes n shes.

Then theres the close and best friend category. You go out often with them, and u dun feel uncomfortable if you're left alone wif him. In fact, you have frequent outings where its just you n him and you enjoy each other's company. You wun even mind if he asks u to tag along to meet his other frenz. You know him so well and he even tells you some of the deep dark secrets. And he wouldnt be irritated if you bugged him with all ur trivial matters or random ramblings or if you were to just call him out of boredom. He solves your problems, helps you get over your emotional concerns, and asks abt the happenings in ur life once in a while. Or you just tell him anw. Such friendships are the most stable and are set to last a long time, unless something really drastic happens, like betrayal.

Anything in between the two extremes would just be the average to good friend, depending on which end of the spectrum it is nearer at.

Weekends finally coming. Yay.

Maybe i do have a problem with expression. I guess im not used to being mushy, and i find it awkward to say thank you for small trivial matters. Im not a man with many words, and i prefer keeping quiet, being the helpful listener of ppl's problems, rather than the whole room staring at me waiting for me to speak. But i guess being a leader means you have to pick up courage for that. Asserting authority, gaining the respect of ur 'followers', delegating tasks, making a motivating speech. And im not sure im ready to take that leap yet. Last wk's sermon said smth abt the world having 2 kinds of ppl: the type that lives life the way it is, and the type that causes impact everywhere he goes. And there's ppl hu lead, and those who follow. Ive really stayed too long in my comfort zone, to the extent that i feel like a-frog-in-the-well kind of safe. And having the big setback that prevented me from being a leader really hurts. Till now i still cun forget the painful memories.

Didnt get selected for the job today. Strangely, they didnt ask alot of qns, and i didnt have any queries for them either. It was more of a briefing acty, wif me listening to them telling me abt the job scope. Must be my lack of work experience and the other more capable interviewees.

Urgh. Enough of sad depressed emotional me. Time to move on wif life, theres a whole lot of opportunities and surprises out there we havent seen.

No inspiration for today's blog entry. Shall talk about the new year. Didnt really make any resolutions, not that i make any every new yr. But one thing i prayed for is for all my next upcoming big things in life to be smooth sailing. Like the choosing of university courses n hopefully getting the one i want. And the starting of uni life, meeting new people, new experiences, new challenges.

Have a rather impt job interview tmr. Determines whether ill continue bumming arnd at home or finally have an income to support myself. Having to scrimp and save, unable to buy things on an impulse sux. Eyeing quite a few items to buy for chinese new yr lol.

Gotta be confident of myself that i can do it. One thing that has improved over the years is my level of confidence, and becoming more sociable to be able to meet new people. I guess NS really changes a person one way or another, making him more of a 'man' than just a little sch boy who recently graduated. Im just scared that ill be an empty vessel tmr with nth tt i can bank on. And one thing that has nvr changed is tt im a worrier, thinking abt all the possibly bad stuff that can happen and get freaked out over them. Urgh.

Anw, here's smth spastic for all those who dig cute diabetic stuff. Enjoy.
http://youtube.com/watch?v=ASIvzkaCdEI

Since i can finally have my dosage of the tv series heroes today, after they decided to go on hiatus for 6 wks since mid december, let's talk abt smth related to being a hero. What superpower would you like if you had a choice? Invincibility, phasing, invisibility, teleportation, telekinesis, clairvoyance, and the list goes on. I feel that one overpowered and highly useful power would be time control. And it would be really applicable in your life, rather than having superhuman strength and just being able to beat the living crap out of everyone. Just imagine: being on time: preventing accidents from happening, giving more time for yourself for time-constraining situations, having not to remember so many things. Its just a simple rewind, fast forward or pausing of time, just like having your life on tape and the remote control in your hands.

But the issue about travelling across time gets a little tricky, since you completely vanish from the current time ur in and move into the past or future, seeing another you in a different time. And wad if say u go so far back in time and decide to kill your father, then will you still exist? If you say yes, how? And if no, wouldnt there be no one to go back in time to kill your father in the first place? An endless loop question, like the chicken and egg mystery. Thats y i believe such knowledge will nvr be found by ourselves or imparted to us by God. Man will only abuse it for selfish desires.

Anw smth on a lighter note: Can't wait for heroes to finish dling so i can watch it! Nth to do these days but keep myself busy with drama serials and anime. Oh well.

Finally satisfied at my revamped blog. Spent so much time editing and reediting html, banners, even wanted to change the whole outlook altogether at one pint in time. Maybe i have too much time on my hands. Ok not maybe, i DO have alot of time on my hands.

Was watching the latest episode of Grey's Anatomy, S03E12, and it really invoked alot of emotions. Not that the other episodes dont, this one involves one of the main chars having his father die. Unforgettable. Teaches you how impt it is to cherish ur parents, and how to learn to let go no matter how painful it is. Death is inevitable in everyone of us and u just nid to respect that, and have faith that they have gone to a better place, away from all the suffering on earth.

Never forget to spend time with your parents. Love them as much as u can such that u leave no room for regret when they are gone. There is nth parents want more than ur constant care n love.

Am i vain? Correction. Am i THAT vain?! In my opinion, everyone who is conscious of himself or herself will be vain to a certain extent. Been receiving quite a few comments abt my new improved look aka dyed hair haha, both good and bad, and taking them with a pinch of salt. I seriously dunno how to respond to positive feedback and i normally just keep quiet and smile. Smiling is a good form of silent politeness anw. Wad abt u? Do u say thanks, or be so humble as to push the comment aside?

Recently had quite a few 21st bdaes, and they either held a party at their house or a cosy little afternoon gathering at a fine restaurant. First was gerald's, and we had an interesting sukiyaki steamboat at his place, a teeny insignificant bit of drinking, and some poker with real cash. Next was shaoru's, where we had it at palais renaissance marmalade pantry and she generously treated us to sunday brunch. Then came sheryl's, which only happened yest. She had a really big party at her place, with frenz from all walks of her life. The similarity btw all the bdaes: independence. You plan your own bdae, you do all the organising, and you even foot the bill. I guess reaching 21 is a big milestone in life, where it marks reaching of adulthood and gaining freedom to be responsible for yourself. I cun say im really prepared to be that person yet, all mature and serious abt my future. I guess i really nid to try harder.

And all these social gatherings has made me more sociable to say the least, at least im not the super introverted guy i used to be many years back, who refused to meet my fren's frenz or even engage a conversation with someone i barely noe. I guess ive changed for the better, into a more conscious being who thinks more than just fun and games.

Ugh down wif the flu which was passed to me by my bro. I hate him. And i hate him for the times when he hogs the com. But we learn to give in, and accommodate each other, wif me giving in more than he does. Little brothers always get bullied by their elder bros anw. Just have to come to terms wif tt. But i still hate him heh.

The acknowledgement of beauty is taste. The creation of beauty is art.

THE signature dessert from marmalade pantry: sticky date toffee pudding with vanilla bean ice cream. Wasnt me hu ate it =(, but heard its VERY good. Great ambience too, a bit slow on the orders tho, cos of the constantly packed crowd i guess. Definitely worth visiting again, tho i think reservations have to be made few days beforehand.

Sometimes i wonder if u really nid to sugar coat what u say to ur frens. On one end, u dun want to unintentionally hurt them with ur words, but at the same time u want to tell them the honest truth and give them constructive criticism. And the thing abt gd frens is that they shldnt take these kinda things to heart n be oversensitive abt it. Another observation i made is that closer frenz tend to know you well enough to know what is the limit, and be careful enuf not to overstep the boundary.

And for me, i'd prefer to be honest and straightforward to frenz who can take it, without being too cutthroat. Criticism is meant for someone to improve aint it. And if i dun like you, even if it may be at that particular moment, i will bitch abt u, no doubt abt tt. But ultimately, thats just to let off steam and no hating is involved. If anything, ive learnt over the years that bottling up of feelings is like installing a self destruct button on urself, and once you explode, you're really left with nothing but a big mess in your life.

On a side note, ive been really picky abt job positions. Is a good paying admin job so hard to find? The job agencies seem to keep throwing me with trashy jobs and expect me to be desperate enuf to accept their imposing job conditions. I may be broke, but not broke enuf to sell my soul. Seriously.

After 2 years of seclusion, i think its finally time that i do something abt my blog and make an effort to update. To those who have been coming here occasionally to hope for new posts, really sorry for the disappointment. Talking abt NS would be boring, and the time spent outside is too meagre and precious to be 'wasted' on something like this.

Anw, the past couple of years have been quite an experience. Trauma, setbacks, incidents. And that's really quite an understatement. Things changed, i've changed. Now that i've reached the age of 20, i think it's time i act more mature n independent. No more whining abt how life sux and rambling abt trivial matters, ever since i realise my posts in the past were so childish and so unlike me. Ew. Its like a person i nvr knew. Thus, expect to see more thought-provoking posts and words of wisdom from my daily walk in life. But i guess ill still add in a few lame comments and stupid jokes when im in the mood hah.

Until then, im on a hiatus. Man i nid a good-paying job. And that is no trivial matter. And im gonna revamp my blog, wif the help of my fren hw of cos. Credit must go to him for the banner he will be making for me haha.