You're the color blue. You have the three c's in
life--you're cool, caring and confident.
Trustworthy and honest, people are naturally
attracted to you. You're unusually optimistic,
but that makes life all the better. You're an
imaginative person who loves sleeping and
dreaming. Hard-working and determined, you
excell in school. You're everybody's favorite,
and this is because you have this undefined
richness in your personality and attitude.
Mild-tempered and stable. Not to mention very
intelligent. Along with the fact that you're
conservative, you're worried about the
environment. So basically, you're a generous,
dependable and devoted--just the kind of person
everybody needs. Wouldn't it be great if
everybody in the world were like you?

What color are you? (Amazingly detailed & accurate--with pics!)


Blue indeed. Wednesday blues. But no one's spared frm the barrage of prelim results from tutors. Well dun wanna say too much abt my results, but at the very least, i improved from my disasterrific Fs in CT2 and mocks even. *tries hard to comfort myself* Got back 2 out of 4 subs today, including gp. Was so scared of failing math and disappointing mr bek again, esp when he announced how many failures there were in class. Really praying for a pass. Havent tasted anything better than an O this year. Ew. When i got back my paper i was so relieved you can literally hear the *whew*.

Chem was the REaL sadistic one. Mr gwee was smiling away while distributing our Es and Fs. And to think i was in a celebratory mood to upgrade my bad failing grade to a not so bad fail grade. Wth totally immune to such attacks alrdy. The denial of acceptance is gone. So much less painful now. Oh well.

Getting back econs tmr. Bleah. Not pinning too much hopes, since its so subjective and you wun really noe if you did well or not. A pass would be very gd thank you.

Other non- sch stuff today: Went to watch New Police Story, surprisingly good. But Jackie Chan cries too much and too darn fake tt its nauseating seeing his face twitch upclose in half the scenes of the movie. Ew. Got another belated present, this nice pair of porcelain mugs. On a cold war wif mom. Woke up late today and missed civics. Gotta collect Pearls records tmr frm ms ho the pe teacher. Yada yada yada.

Posted by Knightz @ 11:57 PM

Had a very fruitful self-proclaimed holiday these few days. Been goin out every single day, making use of all the limited time to enjoy before its a whole full term of mugging and sitting for the As. Enjoying so much that i pretty much forgot to worry about getting back the results when sch reopens. My parents are seriously gonna screw me. Oh well no use thinking abt it too much.

Shant do too much of a journal here. Basically went to stayover on thurs, gaming all nite. Got seriously lost before tt, was supposed to go Bradell, but ended up missing a bus stop and taking another bus in the wrong direction, ended up at Paya Lebar instead. Had so much good food, good wine, and nice accomodation. Nice. Had tennis the day after. Havent played for so long, playing a proper game seemed so hard. Spent much time picking up the balls instead.

Then went to Sentosa on Sat. This time the whole clique was present, really cool. Hung arnd the beach, soaked a lil, played frisbee. The activities didnt matter actually, it was more of the company and the bonding. Had dinner at pastamania, where they surprised me with a piece of cake and a shirt and choker as a present. Really didnt expect it, cos my bdae occurred during the prelims, quite some time ago. Nice of them to still remember. Then went over to the park near xw's place to play with sparklers. Lamed arnd the playground, recalling all the chilhood games we used to play, and let out the child hidden within us.

Had another stayover at xw's place. Talking crap, singing stupid songs, gossip, asking questions and getting lotsa opinions from everyone. Was interesting learning abt wad the others felt abt various kinds of topics, and getting to noe each one at the same time. Sleeping was terrible, with insufficient pillow support and so much heat frm 3 guys trying to share one miserable blanket. In the end stole a bit of pillow and flung myself to the emptier end of the bed. Woke up at 7 plus to have breakfast and send jaime off. Hc left shortly after. Then continued talking cock and laming arnd. Then headed to lunch, where everyone was pretty zonked out. Nearly fell asleep on the bus back.

Reading sr's entry really sets reality in. Soon everyone's gonna go on seperate paths, the girls heading to different unis, some even overseas, while the guys end up in NS. Then everyone will be so busy wif their own lives and have not much time to meet up. Then the clique's gonna disperse, as new cliques form. Feels kinda depressing, and really saddening. Oh well there's still time left to cherish and spend time with one another after As, but that's probably the only time left. Parting is such sweet sorrow, reminiscing is such bittersweet joy.

Can't help saying but i guess i'll really miss you guys.

Woke up freaking late today.Half a day gone just like that. Woohoo, the naruto episodes are finally getting exciting. Completed FFX and FFX2 in the midst of prelims, and the endings rocked. Kinda hate the shallow storyline of the sequel tho, too bimbotic and mindless imo. If you ignore all other side missions, im sure ull be able to complete that game in less than a day.

Damn now i have no time to cut my hair, cos im heading over to my fren's place about now. So many things to do, so little time left.

Is it just me or are all the paper 2s for every single subject tough as hell? Oh well tts not impt anymore. Wads done is done. Woohoo prelims are over! Seems like yesterday when it first started. And the taxing short 1.5 weeks of mayhem is over. Wads worse is having to celebrate some impt occasion of mine in the middle of that pile of shit. Go figure.

Kinda pity arts people tho, they have till Saturday before their papers end. That leaves them with only 2 miserable days before curriculum resumes, assuming that everyone plans to mug once school reopens. Looking on the bad side, as prelims passes by, the dreadful 'A's edges closer and nearer to us. Ew. Get away from me!

On a brighter note, its finally time to relax a lil and try to get back a life, coming out of the world of books back to the social world. The prelims period was such a stressful silent period, where everyone else mugs and mugs again, and as painful as it may be, you're forced to do nothing else but mug. Sad fact, good and bad. Reality is such a cruel thing. Sometimes you just wish life is all about being happy and enjoying. If someone asks you 'What do you hope to achieve in life?', the most sensible reason would be to be happy aint it? Ironically, you may be the top scorer but you wouldnt feel very happy, as you neglect all other worthier aspects of non-mundane life. Achievements in life doesnt equate to happiness. That term is sometime you learn and discover through life.

Oh my gosh digging too much into books has made me philosophical.

Hmm lets see how did i spend the first day of my well-deserved break. Considering I studied *that* much more than i ever did in my 2 years in NJ, I jolly well deserve this man. Oh well I din study much at all in the past to begin with, so you cun hit any lower than rock bottom can you. Woke up late [damn its becoming a habit], woulda been later if my fren hadnt rang me awake. First class clique outing in a very very long time. Its really rare to get an outing with the class, since everyones so segregated into their ccas or own cliques. Supposedly goin to sing karaoke, but ended up playing pool cos happy hour for the ktv starts at 3. o_0 so much for being happy. The rest of the class went to watch dodgeball. Personally I feel class movie outings are kinda dumb, goin in together and viewing the big screen simultaneously doesnt sound very exciting, especially if you cun interact much. Not much bonding.

Oh yea billy bombers serves huge portions of everything to you, and its kinda affordable to. So for people with humongous appetites, i reccomend that place. Their soft drink glasses are the size of a super bug gulp. Gulpz. And the main course can really fill you to the brink. One thing tho, a meatloaf doesnt sound as delectable as it seems.

After pool the group of us went to chill at Coffeee Club Xpress, and basically chilled and chatted and caught up with each other's life and the gossip in school. The mocha freeze there is the nicest ice blended ive drunk so far, beats the overly sweetened variations in starbucks and coffee bean. Then walked all the way to Clarke Quay, sang stupid songs, lamed around, and time flew, 10pm liaoz.

Speaking about time flying, time really does seem to whiz pass quickly. Choir's over in the blink of an eye, 'A's are nearing, NS is coming, and im going. Its been really great times, in choir, in class, in cliques, in outings. Time to cherish every last bit of time left, for playing, studying, getting together with friends, and just doin things one enjoys doin. Theres really not much time left it seems.

Ok i better plan the next few free days of mine wisely. Must not let it go to waste, or ill really let myself down. I wun be able to mug peacefully after that heh.

Hmm slacking now after half the battle has been fought. Yea i noe i shld be studying for the upcoming papers, but gah losing focus alrdy. Maybe cos the first few papers felt a bit too good that ive started to settle into the usual laid-back mood. Argh but then again i havent studied so many chapters, i narrowly escaped, since those questions din appear in the first papers taken. So i guess im kinda lucky this time. But my nemesis, vectors, will definitely show its face in paper 2. And i better be prepared for the onslaught.

Hmmz the week seemed to drag a tat long, and then the next moment you realise you're alrdy in the last few days of the week. It's like theres smth amiss in between, like a void. Feels as though you're being transported through time a few days ahead. Thats how the exam week feels to me. Seriously, going into the classroom/hall and immediately lash out a whole chunk of essay or answers within the time constraint, like every-second-is-worth-one-mark kinda atmosphere, its just brain-draining. You just go in, ignore everything else except your conscious self and the paper in front of you, and start cracking, all the way till the examiners force you to put your pen down.

'Put your pen down.' - I can always use a pencil.
'Stop writing.' - Good, I can draw my graph.

The stress of holding on to every knack of time you can get your hands onto, make you wonder if time is really necessary. If the paper is meant to access your knowledge, shldnt brains that take a long time to start their engine be given some leeway? Or neat writers be given an opportunity to please the examiners with style? And maybe fluent ones being given the chance to flaunt their vocab? They're trying to train us into speed-writing-regurgitators i tell ya.

Hmmz. Hopefully theres no difficulty equilibrum for the papers, or else the later half will attempt to kill conceited beings that think they alrdy own the world with the easy papers they get. Maybe thats the foul plan of the school, mercy first, blade later.

Feeling abit... anti these days. Its the exam mood everyone's gotten into thats affected me. What a contagious bug.

Oh yea i forgot. I got myself a new radio blog!!! It plays music, batteries not required! Speakers needed tho. Sweet. Hope it doesnt eat up too much bandwidth on the server, i took helluva time to find that free webhost.

Oh good luck all for the rest of the exam week. Get off the com and hit the books alrdy. Ouch?


Everything is alright. As long as you breathe.

I hate studying Studying pisses me off Studying sux I hate studying Whats the use of studying I need a life Where can i get one Maths really sux I detest it Why did I like it in the past The education system sux Most of us dun take mathematic-related degress in the future anyway Why study the damn subject Argh my study schedule is screwed I hate my life Studying so much kills my brain I detest going to school I hate the feeling of doubt So what if I'm slack There's really no use to studying Why am I in this freaking screwed life There's nothing to look forward to It's stress after stress after stress When does it end I hate this boring life There's no meaning in life at all now Damn it all

Only when you die, will you get eternal peace.

Im such an weakling, unable to face up to my fears. Instead i give myself excuses and empty promises. My greatest weakness may very well be the inability of accepting my weaknesses. Living in a shadow. A shadow that denies light.

Sadness is such a hindrance. Sulking is useless. I should stop whining and get my act together. And start cracking. No joke.